Hair chopping

I had my hair cut off today, around 7 inches was removed. ... my head feels lighter, lighter=happier. Yeehaw baby

Funny but not profound

I met someone at a bookstore today and just finished reading her blog, before sending her a message though I peeked at my blog (it was been a while!) to see if there was anything shameful before revealing my blog to her.

Her blog is amazing, deep, insightful and well written. Mine is funny, a bit vulgar, and choppy. I think I keep this blog more as a short handed reminder of events to myself than anything. My memory has gotten so bad that I am really glad that I have the blog! I debated all evening about whether or not to send her a message, and then it hit me... as Popeye put it I yam what I yam.

I need to grow, I am growing, and I need to be more open to growing. I avoid talking to people to such a degree that it is almost a phobia. I can't say it is really a side effect of not working, I was like this at work as well, I was just in a position that I was forced to communicate with others. Now that I am not forced to, I just don't. I have introverted to the point I don't even blog anymore.

Talking to my new aquaintance today was probably the first time I have talked to a "stranger" voluntarily in 2 years. YEARS!! Okay, that may be an exaggeration, I do have to speak when ordering food, and I talk to people at school when directly asked a question, I am not rude. But I have not sought out any friendship outside my tiny little island in a very long time. Sasquatch ruined it for me.

Imatwat

Major faux pas this week.

Little bro's girlfriend was telling me about setting their wedding date and informing me of being her bridesmaid earlier this week. I am excited for them, so excited in fact that Monday while at my parents house I told my mom about it.... Mom was shocked, Dad thought I was joking, little bro has failed to mention to our parents that he is getting married! DOH As soon as I got home I called him with a heads up and a promise to buy them 2 wedding gifts. I guess they got a phone call later that night from the parents.... DOH DOH DOH epic fail on my part.

Oh well, I hope they have a long and happy life together... good job little bro! I call him little bro but he is 28 so not really that little. He and the fiance just moved into their new apartment this week, big stuff for little bro!

Bada Bing

I am watching Season 1 of the Brady Brunch, LOVING IT! I have noticed they reference pharmaceuticals quite a bit, tranquilizers, sleeping pills... just talk about it in passing, no biggy. Now we know the secret to the happy family, tranquilizers and sleeping pills. Should have found the fun family secret YEARS ago!!

The need

I NEED to travel, it is an addiction that is rearing its ugly head lately. This addiction is not sated with a trip to the beach down the seat. This addiction is only satisifed when passports are used, bags are packed and I am out of contact with everyone for 3-5 days. Good food must be eaten, friends must have discussed every topic known to man and many books must be read before the travelling time is over.

Things that make you go hmm

The birthfather sent an email.... short boring, nothing to write home about. So why did he write at all? It has been over a year since his last short, boring, nothing to write home about email, why now? Wonder if he has been in prison? Probably would have heard about it if he was. It was weird, oh well.

This semester

I have an algebra teacher, female, not sure of her heritage but she reminds me of a russian spy in a James Bond movie.

I have a history teacher that looks like the love child of Peter Sellers and FDR.

I have a geology teacher that conducts his lectures like Gene Wilder in Young Frankenstein.

I have a yoga teacher that has just made me very sore.

It is going to be a hard but very fun semester!

Brokedy broke broke

Being broke sucks, staying home is awesome. Things balance eachother out I guess. Ying, Yang, all that jazz.

Today my mother took us shopping with her and she bought me one of those new fangled hair remover thingies. The one that says it is pain free and you just rub your leg with this nice little pad and voila no more hair. I must say so far I am very pleased with it, there was no pain involved although you do have to rub furiously to get it to work, not just rub the pleasant little circular motion that they show in the picture. Doesn't rip out the hair like that evil little machine that came out in the nineties.... what was that thing called?

Anyway, my legs are currently hair free and soft from the exfoliation. oooh lala!

What a year

I am trying to figure out how to spend the last day of the year. I don't believe in resolutions, so at least making lists wont be on our list!

One year ago

at this exact moment in time 1 year ago I was on my 25th straight hour at work. I ended up working 26 hours. Crazy. Ike changed our lives so much, but I have absolutely LOVED spending the past year at home with little A.

School started

and now I barely have time to breathe. So much to read, so much to write, so much to memorize. I am taking English, History, Math, and Geology. Yeah, bit much for 1 semester. Oh well, I am off to study.. again.

Death by girls retreat

We had a fabulous time at our girls retreat this weekend. I barely survived it!

Google maps tried to kill us, it sent us off into circles in the back woods. They are officially fired! We managed to navigate to the house, it was gorgeous. We had a nice dinner and then I had a nice long midnight swim.

On Saturday we went to the Comal river to go tubing. On the way there I bought a hat. We got to the river and had to stand in line for a tube. It was hot, it was sunny, and it was a LONG line. 1 hour later I started to feel a bit off. My ears started ringing and my vision started clouding over. I managed to walk over to sit under a tree before I started losing conciousness. I somehow kept upright but was OUT of it! They said I stopped sweating and my lips were white. Chemist S took my hat off and poof, 30 seconds later I was coming around. Stupid hat tried to kill me with heat exhaustion.

Right after I got home I slipped on the stairs with my socks..again. I sprained my ankle, popped my hip and scraped the skin off my arm. AWESOME!

At the beginning of the trip the tooth with the bridge from the evil doctor started hurting. It was pretty darn painful but livable with some pain killers. On the ride home it started feeling like someone shoved a screwdriver up into my face.. awesome, nothing like a nice infection.

So, after multiple attempts on my life I am bruised, sore, and scraped. I had some antibiotics at home that I started taking, so hopefully I wont die from a blood infection. Yeehaw!

Open adoption and new grief

I sent an email tonight to little A's birthmom and I was thinking about a conversation I had with her when we were ending our visit in January.

This was her fiance's first time to meet little A, and after dropping us off he cried. At some point during our journey we have all cried, alone and together. It was our journey and the choices that we made together as a family were hard, for S, for little A, for her family, for us and our family, we all grieved. It was the happiest time for us but at the same time it was very very sad. We have an amazing relationship with little A's birthfamily, but there are still tears at times.

Anyway, back to my point, her fiance was crying because now he has joined in the grief. He loves her so much and though he was not in the picture at the time of the adoption, he is now part of the family. He sees little A, sees how much she looks like S, and the decisions that were made 4 years ago hurt his heart.

It is an amazing journey we embarked upon 4 years ago, and every day we grow and learn from it.

An odd thing to remember

Once upon a midnight dreary I was a thin young lass.

Toooo thin.

5'7" and about 110 lbs.

Scary thin.

And then I met hubby, got married and put on weight as people do. It took a while though before I really noticed the fat cells around my belly. I remember quite clearly the day that I did realize it though, which is an odd clarity in more normally fuzzy cell banks that reside in the brain. I was at work, the job before the airline, and went to the restroom. As I sat down I felt skin fold over and touch that I had never felt before, it was kind of an odd sensation and I spent quite a few fascinated minutes staring in the mirror figuring out that my chest and my tummy had somehow managed to reach out and shake hands. Not a happy day.

Truly an oddly clear memory that came to me tonight out of nowhere.

Now I need to reverse 8 years and go back to the time before skin could touch!

Yay

Christmas comes early when you can see the end of the summer of hell. And it is super awesome when you find out that the summer of hell is ending earlier than expected.

YAY!

Bruised

I fell on my arse today... literally. Crazy slippery slope at the creek got the best of me. I sat in the slime that I slipped on for a while catching my breathe and assessing the damage. E walked over to me and told me I should be more careful, quite perceptive for a 5 year old.

My bum is bruised, luckily (other than the kids) there were no witnesses.

MMM hubby is doing laundry. He has a little addiction to downy, our laundry smells good. He uses so much downy that the entire room is filled with the smell when he brings the hot laundry in.

Old Friends

It is weird running into old friends, even if its only on the internet. Some friendships last forever and the conversation flows so easily. oddities those are.

I need to sleep, I am babysitting tomorrow... but that is a conversation for later. My plan is to wear the kids down until they are just too tired to fight and fuss. If all else fails we can go searching for the alligators that I know are somewhere at the creek.

Erghhh

I think a spider bit my foot.

I don't feel well today, more allergies than spider bite, but that bugger is itching like CRAZY. Hurts when you scratch it so there is no relief. Maybe some ice will help.

Watched four French films this weekend, Little A was out of town so we didn't have to stick with the G rated selection. It was very nice and relaxing. I wish I felt rested but I don't, up all night sneezing and wheezing. Maybe a nap will help, and I must go searching for some keys!

A Wild Hair

I want to learn French, along with little A and J, save up money and go live in Paris for a few months. Nothing permanent, just a furnished apartment that we can live in while we absorb the city and practice our newly learned French.

Little A has to start school next year so the timing is perfect.

Just need passports, visas, permission, some sort of job so we can buy food and pay rent, and a lot of money.

Oh were is that fairy godmother of ours?

Burned burned burned

We stayed at splashtown FAR too long today. Little A rubbed off all the sunscreen under eyes because she kept going "under the sea". Her little cheeks are burned to a crisp... much fun this evening chasing her down with the aloe vera every hour!

Next time we go we are not staying as long! Plus I need to get a babysitter so J and I can go and enjoy the rides!!